Silkworms of the heart

What the universe really wants from us is to give up control. It is asking us, pleading with us, actually, to give up thinking that we have control over it in any way, emotionally, mentally, or spiritually. First of all, you wouldn’t want control. Think how hard it is just to control yourself. Then think about how hard it is to control your kids. And then think about how hard it is to control your money. Every time you have anything that’s attached to you and you try to control it, how well do you do? I don’t know about you, but I haven’t controlled my emotions, I haven’t controlled my thoughts. At a certain point you recognize that control is an illusion. It’s a healthy one: it gets things done in a way, but it’s still an illusion.

When you throw yourself out to the universe in the way I’m discussing, and the heart opens out and then the universe starts sending seeds back, emotional seeds, mental seeds, physical reality seeds, simultaneously past, present and future, you absolutely realize that you can’t know where all these things are going to fall in your net. You have to let go, because when all of this energy is coming your way, if you’re rigid in your control, tightly braced against what’s coming at you, it hurts. It’s like aikido, where they teach you that when someone comes at you, you have to move one way or the other so that you’re not taking the blow directly. Control stiffens you and causes you to get hurt. One aspect of invincibility is that you’re able to move with the wind. But you can’t move with the wind like a willow if you’re an oak.

The heart begins to recognize that its job is to help you have the faith and the trust to release and not seek to control, due to the anxiety of the mind. The mind is where all the insecurity is and the mind will stop the heart from flowing. When the heart recognizes and understands this, the heart has to teach you how to let go. In that process, the heart weaves its nets like a silk worm making a cocoon. The heart chakra, the physical heart and all the organs are made of infinite layers of these silky, web-like, matrices of light. That’s what your catcher’s net is made of. You’re catching those seeds in reality with your heart. Your heart is the catcher.

Cosmic tennis match

When the heart arcs out to the field of higher mind, a synthesis emerges. You get aligned and in rapport with universal intelligence. A feedback loop is created that throws back event structures at you.

Event structures are seeds of events, of possible outcomes, that the heart casts out past the mind. It’s like a tennis court and the heart is the server. It hits the ball over the net, which is the mind, but it stays in the court. And the universe meets the ball, catches that and slams it back at you. In the process of hitting it back at you, it plants seeds, which we call event structures.

These event structures are not only in the present but because spacetime is simultaneous, they are also event structures of the past, and not only this lifetime in this body, but also your soul’s past, your ancestral past, your collective consciousness past, your racial past. Those seeds that are thrown back at you are the seeds of karmas. They’re thrown back at you from the past, present and future, simultaneously. The universe doesn’t experience past, present and future. It’s all simultaneous to the universe. When the universe throws that intelligence back at you, in the form of past, present and future, you interpret what’s being thrown at you. The interpretation of the intelligence that’s thrown back at us is what we experience as reality.

You have no choice but to experience these as emotions and events. You have absolutely zero control over what gets caught in your net. I don’t know anybody who can even fathom what's in their net. It’s way too complex. It’s like a billion spider webs all stacked on one another.

Nor do I think you can fathom all those balls of seeds coming at you from the universe and informing your reality, which you are interpreting. We have feelings attached to things, and to thoughts, which are things. It’s a completely subjective interpretation.

The only way we’d be able to have control over that is that we would have to be in a state of consciousness where you could see every little hole in that net and understand it perfectly. And we would have know exactly when every little ball came our way, exactly what little hole it’s going in, and exactly what the effect of all that was. I don’t think the universe is set up for anybody to do that, at least not at this stage of our development.

Markers of original mind

To experience manifestion, you have to get outside the field of the mind. It cannot come from your head or anything you can think. When you get into the field of manifestation, you’re viewing your own mind field from outside. You see your mind as a field, full of thoughts, beliefs, and structures. We’re not going to try to eliminate that, because we never can get rid of our minds, and we’re not supposed to. But in order to get into the field of manifestation, you have to get outside of the mind completely.

How can you get outside of your own mind? Your heart has all the answers. The field of the heart, which includes love, is the closest thing we have and the most universal messaging instrument to align with universal intelligence. In fact, what is inside the heart is universal intelligence. Your heart is much wiser than your mind. However, we also know that there’s a unification between heart and mind, so we don’t ultimately eliminate the mind.

Pure mind, or what Buddhists call “original mind,” doesn’t just mean that it’s at the beginning. It means that it’s original, self-originating. At each moment there is originality or spontaneity to the higher mind. It’s not locked up in concept or belief. It is moment-to-moment self-originating; improvisational, but very structured. That level of self-originating mind is deeply aligned with universal intelligence.

When the heart aligns with that self-originating aspect of higher mind, it is outside the field of what we usually think of as the mind. There are intelligence markers on a higher level above the mind, which is what higher mind is. There are structures of intelligence that exist above, below, all around it, five-dimensional. The manifestation field that lives outside of the mind is what you’re unifying with.

Desire on the brain

Our desires are masked by our mind. We don’t know how to have a pure desire. Our dreams and visions are all concepts that we’re holding. There’s nothing wrong with having concepts, but pure desire is non-conceptual. Once you freeze it into a concept, you’re limiting the desire. It’s not a living thing anymore, and when it doesn’t have that liveliness of pure sentience. The universe treats it like a leaf that’s just fallen off the tree. It no longer has a life force attached to it. Approaching desires from the level of the mind is one of the reasons why they don’t get fulfilled.

The universe doesn’t know how to recognize concepts because our concepts and our mind aren’t functioning from a very high vibrational level. For example, if you tried to communicate with an ant, you could not do it unless your consciousness was at a very subtle level. Likely as not, you would impose some conceptual structure on that organism. This is the nature of the mind, to impose concepts. So your mind imposes concepts on your desires. This is why it’s hard for the universe to meet your demands.

It’s not the job of the universe to meet your desires. This may be controversial in the light of the popular movie The Secret, that says if you think something, your beliefs will create that reality. I don’t believe that you have a desire and the universe will manifest that. On one level, yes, if I want to pick up a book and I pick it up, I have a resonance with my desire and my will. But the universe doesn’t function from the level of your personal will or even from the level of the collective will.

When you go toward the notion of desire from this level, you have to give up your concepts of your life, what you think it should be, who you think should be in it, and what the projects are that you should be doing. You want to get out of your head because all of that actually interferes with the level of pure desires. The mind is an imposition on the heart. The mind keeps stifling and suffocating pure desires, through its own impulses of will and anxiety.

As the brain ages this happens more in some ways because a lot of anxieties start to manifest as your physical brain is dying and losing brain cells, and the symptoms are nervousness, anxieties, fears, and insecurities. In most people over 40, this mass of anxiety starts to emerge. They start to lose touch with the sense of all possibilities. When you’re young, in your 20s, anything goes, everything’s possible. But when you’re 40 or so, you start to lose your enthusiasm and pure desire. It comes from all the traumatic events that happen in your life and your brain starts to shut down. As you get older you have to get out of your brain!